Hi guys! <3 ( *realizes I've been entirely copying Kat Sketch's intro.* plans to come up with new one. *likely won't.)
So yeah I feel like I've been posting a TON this week because I randomly could not wait until the next day to post but ... Whatever. ;) hopefully this isn't annoying you guys! ( speaking of you guys... So far 14 people have read my blog! Thank you!)
Anyway... I said yesterday that I had like a "half- dance related ramble." Which I do. And you are now going to read but it's gonna be like 20% half dance related (which is 10% what is my brain) then the other 90%... Or would it be 80%... Idk. Let's just say the part that is half dance team related will not be the entirety of the post. It's more of a 10% dance related post. Ok. I could've just said that originally... :D lol
So think of a girl on the dance team. Think of the stereotypes. Picture them. Now think of how they look compared to the rest of the team. Practically identical right? Same hairstyle, same clothing style , occasionally same clothing...
That's not meant to say all girls on the dance team are the same, I only mean they usually dress in the same way with clothes that are from the same stores, and can somehow magically look perfect in athletic wear. Maybe because they're athletes.
I'm just trying to say their style is more preppy and athletic than mine. I wouldn't fit in with them. I like to be unique and uniformity isn't my cup of tea. I was originally planning to wear one of my favorite hairstyles: space buns (two buns on either side of your head) to tryouts but all the YouTube videos and wikihow articles said having hair like that looks like your trying to distract them from your dancing.
So I wore my hair in a high ponytail with a bow just like every single girl who tried out. I didn't feel like me. I was wearing the short spandex shorts I had just told my mom weren't pants and I had to put on longer shorts to get the mail. And I wasn't wearing anything patterned, and I was dressed in all black and white.
You see what I mean? I feel like had I made the dance team I would've had to compromise my style to look uniform.
That leads me into the next point though.
Since my first blog post, the style I've been gravitating too has morphed a bit. Just a few weeks ago I wouldn't be caught dead wearing black in summer. Even if it were a tank top. Also my clothes were very 70s inspired and bohoemian. That was how my style was basically for the past two years.
But lately, and while I was back to school shopping, I've started to like clothes that are what I consider to be "90's kawaii grunge." Stuff like black with pastels, tattoo chokers, jelly shoes, skater skirts, baby doll dresses, combat boots, and the like.
I've heard that a lot of people get offended when people wear stuff that they call "kawaii" or "grunge" but don't have the same personality or lifestyle or preference of music. But if a person dressed that way but called it something else, it's totally fine. I literally just came up with the words that brought up clothes I liked on Google Images and put them together to make "90's Kawaii Grunge." And now I'm suddenly offending everyone because I don't watch anime.
I actually do DRAW anime, but I draw eyes and hair a little different so I can't like Japanese inspired fashion. Does that make sense?
And I don't get why some people don't think a person can dress kawaii with out seeing death threats and such as "cute." I personally view stuff like that as bullying and taking it lightly could cause a person harm.
The Grunge part of the title has nothing to do with what you think of as "grunge." It is only there so the clothes aren't so cutesy. Sometimes Kawaii gets interpreted on Google as cosplay lol :)
And the 90's aspect of it, probably stemming from me watching Boy Meets World and Full House more than most 12 year old girls of 2015, is the only part of my conglomerate style that hasn't yet sparked contraversy. Well I did get a billion stares at Kroger for wearing the aforementioned space buns and the lady at the dance shoe store didn't seem to want me as a customer, but that just because it is kind of "out there."
But I'm not going to change only because of some weird looks. And my personality is literally no different, I just have discovered a new style that I like and it makes me feel confident and like I'm really 100% myself.
In my weird little brain dressing in a unique way makes me feel like I can be myself entirely because my clothes match my personality better than they used too. I think it will help me in the friend category as well because people can tell if I look like someone they'd like to befriend. Does this make any sense?
Sorry if I sounded angry in this, I'm really not I promise. It simply makes literally no sense how stereotypes affect what style people can have. I guess I am kind of a hypocrite though because I stereotyped dance team girls, but I've never met a dancer (besides myself) who doesn't feel confident in athletic wear because they wear it all the time. And note that I never said anything about them having the same personalities it was mainly just how they like to dress.
So on a completely random note I'm debating getting bangs.
Anyway, bye for now!
~Lilah <3
P.s. Wow I wish I could use emojis on here because that does not look like a heart at all :D and that looks nothing like laughter. 8-) oh yeah and I bet you all knew he was supposed to be the sunglasses guy lol :D