Hi guys! <3
I just wanted to update you guys on the results of my tryouts last night. This isn't gonna be super long and I'll still post Friday. But I also am gonna ramble about a thing.
I didn't make the team. I don't necessarily care though because I'd rather not be on the team and have the dance team be really good with a ton of talented people than be on it and be an annoyance and make the team look bad. You know? Basically I'm fine with not making the team. There's two more reasons though and one of them is a bit of a bigger deal than the other.
The lesser one being I'm literally so sore I can't walk normally, and the more important one shall be the topic of today's ramble. And then there's actually another kind of ramble-y topic that I'm saving for Friday because it's sort of only half dance team related if you know what I mean.
So here's the ramble:
Yesterday my mom got for work at 6:15 am like normal and I had gone to bed at 7:00 pm the previous night because of my headache so I was wide awake and got up with her. We ate breakfast and I did my stretches while we watched Celebrity Name Game.
Typical morning. Well she left for work and I texted my friend to see if she could send me the video of the routine to practice with since I'd forgotten my phone the day before at the clinic. She sent it to me and I at first mainly focused on watching the routine over and over to see how it's supposed to look. My dad was still asleep at this point.
Then I decided to write out the choreography in green pen because green ink somehow makes you remember stuff better and so does writing. As I was writing the steps, I realized I had no idea of the technical terms for them so I wrote what the move was. I was kind of disturbed to realize what I was actually doing when the dance coach says some fancy French word. I had written stuff like "swing bottom right to left" and "shimmy up and down twice."
Keep in mind I was doing this in short spandex dance shorts (the uniform). Also that my school's dress code is normally no shorts shorter than 4 inches above the knee.
Then I went to look up the song lyrics on YouTube because like I said yesterday, song lyrics work better than counts for me.
That song is literally about a drunk guy at a club doing bad things with a (likely drunk) girl he hasn't met before. I did not want to memorize those lyrics. So I just used counts but the song is still stuck in my head because it was all I heard for two days straight.
After lunch my dad took me to the park to practice with some more room. That was the most awkward thing I've ever had to do. It felt so wrong to be shaking my bottom around and shimmying in tight shorts to an inappropriate song by myself, let alone my DAD!
So I didn't do the dance super full out on the questionable parts but even so he said he didn't like the routine. So that made me a bit apprehensive to go through with auditioning knowing that my father didn't approve of the dance.
But he was very encouraging to at least try and such.
So I did. And I did it full out. And almost fell. And did like 4 to many turns before my axel. And didn't get in. And went to bed.
Before I fell asleep I thought of something: if I don't feel comfortable doing it in front of my dad, why should I be doing it in front of boys my age, and other students dads, and male teachers, and God?
I shouldn't. So I'm happy. Because I'm not.
I'm not quitting dance though, I'm hoping to start taking lyrical and/or hip hop soon. Those dance styles are in my opinion real dancing. So are jazz, ballet and tap. Those dances are art forms where they have a story to them and have emotion. They aren't just girls in tight clothing being all inappropriate.
Once again this is just my opinion, from my perspective, and my religious background. I'm not saying Christians can't be on the dance team, I'm just saying that you don't want to be doing things that you and your family aren't comfortable with. Some dance teams might be different and its up to you to decide if you think they are or not.
I said this wasn't gonna be long... Sorry haha!
Anyway, the half- dance team post will be Friday and that will be a little less... Potentially offensive and deep stuff ;)
Bye for now!
~Lilah <3